The Fall Out from Meditation

For the past six months, I’ve created a very disciplined meditation practice.  I spend thirty minutes at the beginning and end of the day sitting in quiet contemplation of the NOW.  Sometimes I vary my practice with a guided meditation, but mostly it is a focused vibrational awareness that I am fine-tuning, as I am becoming more and more tuned into my present moment, without any distractions.

I can feel the positive effects of regular and sustained meditation. I sleep incredibly well. I have more energy and motivation.  Creative ideas flow to me on a consistent basis.  My stress levels are way down (it is pretty hard to feel too much stress when you are living at the beach, but I still credit meditation with this result).  All in all, I am a text book case of all the positive results of embracing meditation.

So here is the potential downside I’ve been noticing.  All this vibrational alignment is making things fly in and out of my experience really, really fast.  Faster than this plodding Taurus is used to or really comfortable with.

I believe this has to do with the clarity of process from thought and emotion to manifestation.  Abraham will say fairly frequently that “All hell breaks loose” when someone begins to meditate and lowers their resistance.  The hell breaking loose part is all the lower vibrational stuff that was stuck in my experience that is now flowing out, and  of course there is all that good stuff is flowing in.  But I consider my vibration to be in transition, not quite where I want to be yet, and not as consistent as I desire. So it feels a little like walking on quicksand.  It feels a little unsteady.

This is where the rest of the Law of Attraction work comes in,  where I am cultivating trust and belief and focus for where I am going, what I am wanting, lining things up.  Self-soothing and reminding myself that there is so much more on its way. I know I am close and I can feel the momentum gathering speed.  When things do come in and fall out of my experience quickly, I say “Thank you, that was fun. Next?”

The permanence of the ocean

Walking on the beach this morning, it occurred to me, as transient and ever changing as the ocean is, it is also incredibly permanent. Living as I do in a constant state of flux, it provides a restorative underpinning to see that paradox is the essence of all things. The waves may flow in and slide out, but the fabric of the sea remains intact.

Just so, my life continues to ebb and flow in new patterns and combinations; but at my essence I am the newborn soul arriving 45 years ago to have this experience.

What I do….

The other day, I found a job description that literally sang to me. It seemed as if the HR Manager had written it with me specifically in mind, well except for the fact that this dream job is in another country. That being said, I reconfigured this wonderful job opening as a personal request for the Universe.

The world is made up of dreamers and doers. I help dreamers become doers. My clients are visionaries, and I act as their strategic dream organizer. Together, we work to leverage innovative big ideas and map future projects, creating a whole that is great than the parts.

With my proven track record of excavating and facilitating the dreams of others, I smile with delight when the ‘impossible’ idea is presented and immediately begin the process of evaluation, concept, business case and nailing down the most efficient path to success. A problem-solver by nature, I actively and wholly seek to find the possible within the seemingly impossible.

I truly understand the power of setting and achieving goals and I hope to inspire those around me to start living a life they absolutely love. Authentic and articulate communication skills, excellent team work ability, a solid business mind, as well as a strong love for vinyasa flow yoga classes are key attributes to my success.

My qualifications:
-Certified Yoga, Pilates and Gyrotonic Instructor
-Certified Personal Coach and HeartMath 1:1 Provider
-Excellent team player as well as the ability to work independently.
-Effective communication skills (written & verbal)
-Extremely organized, thorough and able to prioritize
-Detail oriented
-Strong ability to see the big picture and translate the vision into viable plans.
-Results oriented – strong sense of motivation
-Self directed problem solver, proactive and resourceful
-Responsible, dependable and mature, with sound judgment

My personal drive:
– Proven work ethic with utmost integrity
– Desire to excel and succeed
– Self-awareness, with a desire for constant self improvement
– Entrepreneurial spirit and intuitive sense of the future
– Self-motivated, passionate, empathetic, and approachable
– Outgoing, energetic, upbeat and fun!

I Know Where I Am, But I Don’t Know Where I Am Going!

A friend and her out-of-town friend came to pick me up for the movie, Eat, Pray, Love. After we had made it throught the introductions, my new friend started to drive away, paused, looked both ways and said “I know where I am, but I don’t know where I am going.” Wow! Yoga in action!

I can’t tell you how many times have I thought that same thing. I can tell you that many of my clients have expressed these thoughts to me, whether they used those words or other phrases. It is easy to know where we are, we can take inventory of our lives and see what is working and not working. But it is hard to figure out where we are going or should be going.

This ties back into my Think and Grow Rich readings. I have now read the book three times. Each time, the missing links get a little clearer. What I have come to realize is that without the “burning desire”, aka “where I am going,” all the plans and wishes in the world aren’t worth much. What is also coming to the surface is that my burning desire has always been to help others fuel their burning desires. So I now realize that it isn’t that I do not have a burning desire, but that my instinctive habit of providing service to my friends, family and clients to help them achieve their vision has always ended up substituting itself for my “burning desire”. Or perhaps, more likely, I just didn’t recognize that the desire to help others achieve their goals was my “burning desire”.

I know where I am, AND I know where I am going! So satisfying and exciting!

Yoga Teacher Training, Take Two!

Between January and May of 2010, I experienced the in-depth immersion of EVOLVE’s Yoga Teacher Training Program with Carson Efird. My successful completion provided me the credentials RYT-200, which means Registered Yoga Teacher with 200 contact hours with a trainer. It proved to be a very reductive experience, meaning that I came away from the four months exploring what could I let go of, what was no longer necessary in my life, what could I release? And the Universe responded with its own ideas of what was insubstantial and should shake loose; some of which I may or may not have been ready to let go, but aligning to that space in my life has proved to be rewarding.

The blessing in all this stripping away is that clarity of thought was left at the end. I stood in the center of emptiness and could chose what to do next. My dharma has brought me back to the YTT program again, this time as the administrative assistant for Carson, but also with an opportunity to reorganize the information and immerse myself in this system of wisdom without the pressure of homework and deadlines. This weekend launched the new class, eight beautiful and open-hearted women who were apprehensive about what they had committed to, but also eager for transformation and possibility. I found for myself this kickoff weekend, comfort and validation, but also enormous space for new knowledge and community to flourish. Namaste!